Home alone with Tav

So Jesse left for a deployment to the Phillipines shortly after my birthday. Tav and I have been home for a few weeks by our self. So far so good, I guess. Tav is a happy easy going baby, which is good but as for me...I miss Jesse alot. It's lonely with him gone. I have Tav to talk to but he only coo's back. I miss hearing another voice in this house.

It's strange to me but this deployment is hitting me harder then when he was deployed to Iraq and his last deployment just before Tav was born. I think it is because we have a family now. Before it was just me and I could leave the house easily but now I have to think about Tav before I leave to go any where. I can remember just getting out of the house at all kinds of hours and hanging out with friends. Not so much when I was pregnant because all I wanted to do was sleep but even now I can only sleep when Tav sleeps. If I do want to go any where I have to think about the time and where I am going to make sure that Tav is awake and it's some place he can go.

Tonight we left the house at around 8:30 pm to go to the pharmacy at the hospital because I forgot to pick up Tav's refill of infant tylonal. So spelled that wrong. Any way it was close to his just after his bed time but he did not want to sleep just yet. Well it was nice to get out of this boring house and do that. Granted it was a quick drive there and a quick drive back but I kinda took the longer way home by driving past our road and truning at the next light. It helped to put the boy to sleep. That and the baby lulaby (again the spelling) CD that my mom got us which I have in the car for when he is crying and it's hard to tend to him right away. It always puts him to sleep. Which was nice because he went from his carseat to bed when we got home. I was smart and had put him in his PJs before we left so that if he did fall asleep he was all ready for bed.

But any way WE (Jesse and I) are still adjusting to parenthood and well I know I miss some things about when it was just the two of us but I love our son. I miss the fact that we could do what ever when ever but at the same time I am glad that we gave it up because we have such a beautiful loving baby boy. Tav is the only reason why I still have a HUGE smile on my face. If that little guy was not around my smile would not be so big.

It seems like he is always doing something new. Like this week after his 4 month appointment I started him out on rice cereal. The first feeding I waited way too long to feed him even though I knew he was getting hungry. See he eats about every 4 hours some times its less then that but most of the time its around 4 hours from his last feeding. Any way when I did try to feed him the cereal he cried and cried and cried. I tried to record it but with the way he was crying I don't think I will send it out to any one and besides it's on my newer laptop but something is wrong with my power cord. So I can not get to it any way.

However he is doing good on his feeding of rice cereal but I dont know if he likes the spoon that much. I just hope that some time this coming week we can try some veggies. The doctor and my mom told me to start with them and not fruit because of how sweet they are. Which I can understand that. So we will have to see how he does with the cereal and then move on from there. The only thing is I am the one that gets to have the food spit out on me and not daddy. By the time Jesse gets home Tav should be eatting veggies, I hope, and when he goes to feed Tav he will get a better reaction unless I have him feed Tav some new veggie or fruit. Which I just might so that Jesse knows what it feels like to get food spit at him...LOL...besides it would be funny to see:P !!

Any way that is how things are going here. So until the next night when I am bored out of my mind and Tav is sleeping...Good night every one. We love and miss you all!!!