Where Jesse is deployed and Tav is in bed between 7 pm and 9 pm, I have had time to clean the house before going to bed. Well last night I figured I would sit down and start filling out the envelopes for our holiday cards to be sent out. I am really on top of things because we had pictures taken in August for our cards. I did that only because I did not know how our training would be. I know that once my unit is back from this deployment that Jesse is on too they jump right in to another training exercise. Which I think I may be on. I just have to see.
Any way so last night as I was sitting there writing out the envelopes I knoticed that I have done a very bad job of keeping up with my family's addresses. I have done a good job of making sure I have Jesse's brother Matt's and his father's address, however when it comes to my extended family I do not have every ones address. I am missing all of my dad's siblings addresses. I feel bad but I sent my dad's sister an email asking her for my uncle's addresses. I don't know why I don't have all my uncle's addresses but for some reason I don't.
Along with those addresses I know that some of our friends have moved and I have got there new addresses. But I still feel funny that here it is October and I am filling out envelopes for our holiday cards, however I like to try and be on top of things so that I don't get stressed out. That is the last thing I need to do now that Tav is around. I like to be calm and have fun with him not all tired out and stressed out. But that is not here nor there.
So I am hopeing that come November 15 I will have all our holiday cards in the mail with holiday stamps on them. I know it will take some time to fill out all the envelopes, put the holiday card in them, and then stamp them but I am hoping to have almost all of that done before Jesse gets home. Every thing up till putting a stamp on them. That way when Jesse is home I can take an hour here and there to put the stamps on them and dropping them in the mail box is easy. I can drive up to the blue box and in they go. It's just getting them to that point that is where all the work is.
So not only am I getting my holiday cards ready I am also updating my address book. Which is a good thing. That way come next year I hopefully will only have to double check with people on there addresses and then do our holiday cards a little later then October!! Well Tav and I need to get going. We stilll have to get birthday cards for my mom which will be late only because I have lost track of the days and don't want to do that with the holiday cards because they will never make it out. Well we are off. Later people
Friday, October 24, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Wishing I was any where but here!!!
Ever since Auctavine was born I have started to hate the Marine Corp. Well the past week was the straw that broke the camels back and things just seem to be getting under my skin more. I can handle dealing with Orders and Directives that I think are unfair but when the Marine Corp comes between me and my family thats it.
My family is very important to me and they will always be. Now that I have my own little family that is where my responsiblity is. It is my husbands and my job as parents to make sure our son is taken care of no matter what. We are responsible for keeping a roof over his head, clothes on his back and food in his month. I know my parents always said something like that but I know roof, clothes and food were in it.
Any way deployments are hard on a person depending on where it is and if they are single or married. However no matter where one goes there is a way to call your loved ones. Some deployments are easier with talking to people back home where others are not. Take for example Iraq that is one place where your so busy and have different things going on that you might be able to talk to a love one every two or three weeks. Some times you go longer then that just depending on what you are doing. Then there are other deployments that are only a month or two long but you get to stay in hotels, have internet conection and phones. Those deployments make it easier to talk to loved ones.
Well one would think that it would be easier, however this deployment that is not the case. Some one decieded that the best punshiment for my husband would be to take away the hotel room except to shower once a day, the internet and phone. They also told my husband that they did not care what he had going on back here in Okinawa.
That to me is a shitty leader. That person is not looking out for my husband as a Marine. That there makes me want out really bad. I am no longer proud to say that I am a United States Marine. Which is funny because of all the things that have happened over here to give not just the Marine Corp a bad name but also the United States. I am more upset over the leadership.
That is where the problem is in the Marine Corp. People are too afraid to tell a Marine your not ready for the next rank. Instead they promot them up from the Lance Corporal rank to Corporal when they still act and preform as a Lance Corporal. Then while the are in the Non-Conmissioned officer ranks (Corporal and Sargent) they make there way to Staff Sargent and then Gunnery Sargent. From there they move up to Master Sargent or First Sargent. By the time they reach Master Sargent or First Sargent they have learned how to be a good leader and Marine. Well at least you would think that but its not always true.
Some people don't know how to be a leader becasue they let other things get in the way of there judgment. Things like friendship and there personal feeling about the lesser ranking Marine. The Marine Corp is a job but for some it is there life. This is all they know and will ever know because they are scared to get out. I am not scared to get out. I know that our economy is bad but I got a plan and a wonderful support group.
But enough about me back to the Marine Corp and how I wish I did not have the title U.S. Marine. The beging of the month my husband left for a deployment. Which is fine thats part of the job. Well where I am active duty I still have things that I need to do for the Marine Corp that take me away from Auctavine for 24 plus hours. Its called duty. Which I have no problem standing as long as my little boy is taken care of. So there is problem number one and I have duty three times this month. One of my duties I had some one to watch him over night but the next two coming up are in the air on who will watch him and I don't want some one I don't know watching him. It is like the Marine Corp does not care about a Marine's family.
That is so wrong because family for most Marine's is there motovation. I know mine is but lately when I get up I dont want to put on my camies and drop my son off with another person to watch him. I have to be at work at crazy hours and then some nights I wonder what time I will be able to get my son. It so does not help that I have a small case of post partum blues. So being home with Auctavine and no husband really makes me want out. That way I dont have to stress about finding a sitter to watch my child, who is my responsiblity over night. I so do not know how single moms do it. I am just not as strong as them, I guess.
Well that is how I feel with my husband deployed. But I am just trying to make it till the day I get out Febuary 19, 2010. I am going to try and ask to get out January 1, 2010 so that I can start school and finely finish my degree!! I would really like to be a teacher!! That would be more of a rewarding job then being a Marine.
My family is very important to me and they will always be. Now that I have my own little family that is where my responsiblity is. It is my husbands and my job as parents to make sure our son is taken care of no matter what. We are responsible for keeping a roof over his head, clothes on his back and food in his month. I know my parents always said something like that but I know roof, clothes and food were in it.
Any way deployments are hard on a person depending on where it is and if they are single or married. However no matter where one goes there is a way to call your loved ones. Some deployments are easier with talking to people back home where others are not. Take for example Iraq that is one place where your so busy and have different things going on that you might be able to talk to a love one every two or three weeks. Some times you go longer then that just depending on what you are doing. Then there are other deployments that are only a month or two long but you get to stay in hotels, have internet conection and phones. Those deployments make it easier to talk to loved ones.
Well one would think that it would be easier, however this deployment that is not the case. Some one decieded that the best punshiment for my husband would be to take away the hotel room except to shower once a day, the internet and phone. They also told my husband that they did not care what he had going on back here in Okinawa.
That to me is a shitty leader. That person is not looking out for my husband as a Marine. That there makes me want out really bad. I am no longer proud to say that I am a United States Marine. Which is funny because of all the things that have happened over here to give not just the Marine Corp a bad name but also the United States. I am more upset over the leadership.
That is where the problem is in the Marine Corp. People are too afraid to tell a Marine your not ready for the next rank. Instead they promot them up from the Lance Corporal rank to Corporal when they still act and preform as a Lance Corporal. Then while the are in the Non-Conmissioned officer ranks (Corporal and Sargent) they make there way to Staff Sargent and then Gunnery Sargent. From there they move up to Master Sargent or First Sargent. By the time they reach Master Sargent or First Sargent they have learned how to be a good leader and Marine. Well at least you would think that but its not always true.
Some people don't know how to be a leader becasue they let other things get in the way of there judgment. Things like friendship and there personal feeling about the lesser ranking Marine. The Marine Corp is a job but for some it is there life. This is all they know and will ever know because they are scared to get out. I am not scared to get out. I know that our economy is bad but I got a plan and a wonderful support group.
But enough about me back to the Marine Corp and how I wish I did not have the title U.S. Marine. The beging of the month my husband left for a deployment. Which is fine thats part of the job. Well where I am active duty I still have things that I need to do for the Marine Corp that take me away from Auctavine for 24 plus hours. Its called duty. Which I have no problem standing as long as my little boy is taken care of. So there is problem number one and I have duty three times this month. One of my duties I had some one to watch him over night but the next two coming up are in the air on who will watch him and I don't want some one I don't know watching him. It is like the Marine Corp does not care about a Marine's family.
That is so wrong because family for most Marine's is there motovation. I know mine is but lately when I get up I dont want to put on my camies and drop my son off with another person to watch him. I have to be at work at crazy hours and then some nights I wonder what time I will be able to get my son. It so does not help that I have a small case of post partum blues. So being home with Auctavine and no husband really makes me want out. That way I dont have to stress about finding a sitter to watch my child, who is my responsiblity over night. I so do not know how single moms do it. I am just not as strong as them, I guess.
Well that is how I feel with my husband deployed. But I am just trying to make it till the day I get out Febuary 19, 2010. I am going to try and ask to get out January 1, 2010 so that I can start school and finely finish my degree!! I would really like to be a teacher!! That would be more of a rewarding job then being a Marine.
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