Military life is hard.

I have not posted for a while because I have not had the time to post. A lot has happened since my last post. Some things great and some not so but every thing is a part of life. Lets see the last thing I talked about was about the house we were trying to get. Which by the way we got!! It is so nice and if I had not been getting ready to deploy there would be pictures on here of the house.

Yes shortly after we got the house I was packing my bag for Afghanistand. Which is were I sit right now writing this. I will say that the stress of moving my family from one country to another, finding out the base housing waiting list is a year long and to top it off your leaving for deployment in a month or so puts a lot on your family and you.

Jesse and I have had a ruff time but things are starting to look up. Before I left things were very stressful for the both of us. Still is stessful for me but for Jesse his stress level is not as high as it was. I am sure he is still stressed out. He had to drop our son off at my parents because he is getting ready to train up for deployment.

Which SUCKS. We may not see each other for over a year. That alone is a lot for a relationship to take. Then you add the choices that one makes with out including the other and you start to wonder where things are going. I will say that once I left for here Jesse forgot to include me in on some things that he was planing on doing. Which he did and I got upset. I on the other hand had included him in on my choice to reenlist and with the way things have been and the fact that he is going to be deploying some time while I am deployed it makes me wonder if it was the right choice for us.

Jesse keeps a positive look on it because he says we can do this. I know we can but we both have to work at it. I just don't like being away from my boys. I miss them. I miss my hugs, kisses and laying beside my best friend. I also miss holding my baby and seeing him get big. He is almost walking, has teeth and is eating table food. With every thing that has been tossed our way we are some how working throught it an things are starting to look up.

I just hope I can take some R&R to see Jesse before he deploys!!

That is some good and bad things.